For real

I know i have said this for so many times but i promise i am gonna start updating my blog for real this time..

I just dunno why do i find it so hard now..I have no interest in taking photos..how did i manage to have so many things to blog about every week in the past?

I mostly just stay in my room, watching episodes and episodes of korean dramas. I have all the free time in the world (god knows i won't use the time to study), and i choose to waste it like that. It has been five months since i left Brunei, and i have not been productive and useful at all.

All i think about is to eat, eat, eat and eat. I still can't stop myself from eating even at times when i'm already bloated as hell. It's not about the hunger at all, i just want to eat regardless. Does that make any sense?

It doesn't feel good at all whenever i binge. I really hate myself for that. I dislike how i feel both naked and clothed. 

Fuck you fats and stretch marks, i hate you.

I guess i am just too bored and lonely. ..

I want to change.

I am gonna start exercising and change my diet from tomorrow onwards. 
It's the month of June, i believe it's possible. My favourite month of the year, just in case you didn't know.