Sunday, May 31, 2015

For real

I know i have said this for so many times but i promise i am gonna start updating my blog for real this time..
I just dunno why do i find it so hard now..I have no interest in taking photos..how did i manage to have so many things to blog about every week in the past?

I mostly just stay in my room, watching episodes and episodes of korean dramas. I have all the free time in the world (god knows i won't use the time to study), and i choose to waste it like that. It has been five months since i left Brunei, and i have not been productive and useful at all.

All i think about is to eat, eat, eat and eat. I still can't stop myself from eating even at times when i'm already bloated as hell. It's not about the hunger at all, i just want to eat regardless. Does that make any sense?
It doesn't feel good at all whenever i binge. I really hate myself for that. I dislike how i feel both naked and clothed. 
Fuck you fats and stretch marks, i hate you.

I guess i am just too bored and lonely. ..




I want to change.

I am gonna start exercising and change my diet from tomorrow onwards. 
It's the month of June, i believe it's possible. My favourite month of the year, just in case you didn't know. 




3 comments :

  1. Are my comments not being updated ? Or did I just spammed ??

    Love
    Kimchiman

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  2. ... Damn you google plus, where are my comments ???

    Anyway

    You can do it!! It's the month of June and you being June will have extra powers!! Don't give up! 😘 my shoulders are always yours if ever need support

    Love
    Kimchiman

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  3. You are not fat!! I've gained a few kilos since holiday started as well..but I try to exercise as much as I can (although usually I'm very very lazy). Jia you June!! Fighting~!

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