Parents and close friends have been discouraging me to go to work. I have thought about quitting..but how should i tell my employers and colleagues who have been so patient to me that, i need to stop working for now.. So i just have to be responsible and brave enough to bear with the consequences now. Give me the strength.
I haven't been so busy in my life before. I took two extra modules this semester and I started working not long ago. Part time job is nothing new to me. I have worked in various places before so i never expected it to be so difficult to juggle studies and work. For the weekdays I have to go to ripas for my clinical rotation either in the morning or in the afternoon, and go to work at night. Not to forget i also have classes to attend in some of the mornings. I now averagely spend 15 hours working/studying/nursing, which means i only spend 9 hours a day in hostel. 9 hours minus a maximum of 6 hours of sleep, all i get is only 3 hours of free time. Of course the free time has to include doing assignments, which is ridiculous if u think i still have the energy and brain juice to complete them. Well since a backpacking trip is on my new year resolution list, i am doing the best i could to make it happen. The last thing i wanna do is to spend my parents money unnecessarily, for my own satisfaction. And what feels more good than using the money you earn to fulfill your dreams? However, I am slowly isolating myself from my friends as i hardly have time for them. I am slowly inclining towards the lifestyle of what most people would refer to as 'having no life'.....
Sunday, November 24, 2013
i was supposed to study but i just slept away my whole revision week.. what the hell am i thinking?
haven't blogged for a realllly long time =C Kinda forgot what really happened GRR hate it when i can't remember things! anyway i kinda pissed off my personal tutor yesterday. damn..how am i gonna survive for the next 3 years in IHS? :|
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Chinese knot! i am sooo proud of myself :D
cookies that i baked 368556125 days ago
Had a dinner with mr. mak. The 1L milk tea kept me up all night.
Last two weeks skill lab session about subcutaneous injection
and intramuscular injection..
erm.. a frozen papaya?
accidentally froze my papaya :|
so mum decided to have a book with our faces printed on it at home HAHAHA
Super yummy kuih sapit with nutella from fiqah
watched the heartbroken glee S05 ep3 last night :'(
The library database was a bitch for the past few days.
Luckily it is working now.
It's been a hard day's night
And I've been reading like a dog It's been a hard day's night I should be sleeping like a log
I have read too much for the past 2 days. Today is just one of those days when i don't feel like doing anything.
The sentences i wrote were crappy and didn't make sense at all.
Monday, September 30, 2013
I need to submit a reflective essay this semester. But i can't remember any events in ward 10 that is as profound as the one that happened last semester. That incidence really troubled me. I find it extremely uncomfortable whenever i try to recall details of it. I DON'T WANNA REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I DON'T WANNA EXPERIENCE IT ALL OVER AGAIN. That feeling is terrifying. Come on, I put someone's live at risk due to my ignorance. It was something that i would never forget for the rest of my life. Hence I feel the need to reflect on it properly in this assignment. I need to end it properly..I need to do it so that i can get over it... But, how should i do it?
Ended up sitting on the floor of the lecture theatre as i woke up reallllllllllly late
Was craving for porridge due to sore throat.
I always think of dad whenever I add egg to my porridge, because the first porridge that dad cooked for me had egg in it.
Baked a mini nutella cake for sj's birthday as i only had nutella, flour and egg in the hostel :(
It tasted MEH. soo disappointed.
Went jolibee for ice cream. have always loved spontaneous outings!
I.JUST.HAD.TO.take a photo of this boiled egg for my sandwich :9
Learned about caring patient with water seal chamber for this week's skill.
Sil told me to watch this months ago and now i'm addicted to it. I've watched this movie for the 4th time already <3 how crazy. I want a sequeallllllll pllllleeeaasseee!
I have been torturing my stomach lately by stuffing myself with tones of junk food/rubbishes. Dear tummy, i am really sorry.
I'm stressing out.
I'm killing myself for not having enough sleep lately.
And also i.experienced.the.first.sleep.paralysis.of.my.life few days ago.
It lasted for few seconds. I need sleep...i really need to sleep.
And i start to experience how it is like to have backpain. It.is.damn.annoying.and.uncomfortable. Not sure if it's due to the clinical placement or my stupid door or showering too late at night.
Hahaha cooked the most delicious spaghetti with the girls last monday night.
The route to the sports complex
with fiqah and syukri
I really, really, really, really, really enjoy myself when i am in ward 11.
I am always smiling this wide =D maybe much much more wider than this. =DDDDD
The patients, the nurses, the helpers, everything, everything in this ward cheers me up.
It really warms my heart whenever i see patients all well after surgeries and ready to go home.
It really warms my heart whenever someone smiles at me and says thank you.
I want to remember everything about this ward.
The grandma who complains that she can't understand my hakka accent, the grandma who complains that she can't sleep well because of the hourly eyedrops, the grandma who dislikes eating fried fish, the grandma who wants the hospital gown that is well ironed, the grandma who holds my hands whenever i greet her goodbye at the end of my shifts...
Of course, there are times when i will turn myself into a paranoid parrot and start worrying about the patients and hate myself for making minor mistakes.
The need to choose cases for my assignments is stressing me out too. But i choose not to think about it yet.
I'm totally a socially awkward penguin. I'm the type of person who would hide myself in the room whenever i have relatives or family friends visiting the house.
But i think that is not the case when i'm in ward 11. amazing?
Sometimes i think that i treat the patients better than my family :'(
I don't give my family as much concern as i do to the patients and my friends.
But that doesn't mean that i don't love them.
But why is it that i'm behaving like this? Am i taking it for granted? Knowing that my family would always be there for me forever..
Ripas looks so different during the night time, totally different from the quiet SSB
Syukri and fiqah taught me venipuncture!
Really thank syukri and fiqah for letting me puncturing their veins :(
